well todae, in school, after watching a nice video during assembly which is one of the effort of one of my ex teacher, Mr Ng S.K , i actually have tears screaming to come out of me...

it is about a guy being sort of psyched and counselled out of the depression that he is experiencing after a failed 3 year relationship with a girl. what the coach say is really true, all is not lose from the relationship...instead things are gained, experiences and happiness which are both priceless.

well I can say it should be true to mi...

sec 3 i lose a girl who cheated on mi with another guy
jc1 i lose a girl who cheated on mi with another guy too.

the first failed relationship is lyke, oh well, I run around the neighbour hood in tears every night for at least a month? foolish mi...while this cause my personality to change from super outgoing, talkative, confident guy to a sadist, quiet, weird, shy guy, making me not as popular from sec 3 onwards, even during my jc1?

zzzzz I m scared of getting hurt, i hated girls to some extend, i even define them as money leeching bitches in my dictionary..

well then jc1 i tried another 1, zzzz same things happen...but this time i cried during the holidays until this year jan...and causing mi to even close up mre and very sensitive, distancing away from my friends as well...girl > friends > family...

and this two barricade actually prevent mi from getting my actual O lvl result and jc1 result...I didnt study for o lvl and jc1 much...no hw done...

Screw it all, I m letting those emotion getting a hold on me! wasting my time...argh time to snap out of it!!

Roar!!

I should have gain instead of losing from the failed love...

how i wish i can hug some1 and cry it away now, then start afresh, no 1 should walk over me, i should love every1 and lastly no relying on girls too much...

but haisss i have too much things that cannot be said...so i appeared to be a evil ppl, always thinking of bad things...haizz why am i in this family? everyday, my family dun tok dun luff, all not trusting each other..

I just wish for a hug a kiss a assurance from ani1 >.<

haisss =(